never loosing hope

i've been reminiscing about past "love"... not real ones, but the ones that mean so much when your little. i usually think about the horrible ending they had, the boy leaving etc. but i decided that it best to remember the sweet part, as to make a collection in my mind like a film. i don't mean that i will forget how it hurt, that helps me see clearly any future guy to come my way. but when i'm alone just wondering its best to just think of things that make you smile, be positive.
like with Oscar, i loved how secretive we were, never letting anyone see us flirting (it was the time in life when boys and girls weren't friends), he would always bring me smth from the or share food :) the one thing i never forget is how he used to come really close and ask if i was ok, even when i was just lazying around, i used to do it on purpose just so he'd come hang out for a min...
with Daniel it was all hidden, this was when i was in my last year in school, boys were allowed to flirt in public with girls, yet he was so shy. what i remember is how we first really met, his jacket on the floor i pick it up rap it around him, smile and he just looks at me. i knew that was the moment was when he realized i wasn't just an annoying girl in class, because after that day he never stopped looking at me... from a distance he would always be look (not in  a creepy way) i still have a few of the drawing he would pass me during class. he would hold my hand, look at me; no stare, OMG HE WOULD SMOLDER!!! HA! loved it i guess :3

                        

 

yup, there might have been other boys, but nothing stayed, these two just keep creeping their way back into my head...
i hope they're doing well, i have them on facebook, but i like to be the stalking kind... BAH! lies! we've all been there, looking back... not like a "what if"type of way, just remembering :) the next guy better be like this and more <3